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Jake's Blog Post

Jake

Jake's Blog Post

  "Oh, Jake, we could have had a really* good time together."

Was she serious?! After everything I've done, she decides now that we would have been a good couple. That's ridiculous. I'm not even sure I like her anymore. Part of me heard that and wanted to jump at the invitation. The other part, however, wanted to let her go. Part of me knows that she would only use me for a while and then move on to someone else. I don't know if my heart could take that from her. I've loved her for so long. I don't know what came over me, but I felt a wave of confidence and independence. "Isn't it pretty to think so?" It felt so amazing to say that. It was like freeing myself from years of bondage. Brett is a wonderful woman. Anyone including myself would be lucky to have her. I just knew that my love for her wasn't love. It was infatuation. I was infatuated with everything about her. A relationship between us would never work out. It would be fun in the beginning, but as time would progress, I would have to realize that she isn't right for me. Knowing her, she would be finished with me as soon as a better guy came around. Maybe in the future, if she changes her ways, and slows down a bit, we could try it. For now, our relationship is and would only be a pretty thought.

Jake Barnes

"Oh, Jake," Brett said, "We could have had such a damned good time together."

"Yes," I said. "Isn’t it pretty to think so?" 

" (Hemingway 251).

I still have feelings for Brett, but I don't have the energy to imagine a happy ending. I've been trying to fix our relationship, but now I know that Brett and I can’t be together. I now recognize that it could never have happened, even in the past. The idea of our relationship is simply a pretty, but impossible dream.

Robert Cohn

“I have never seen a man in civil life as nervous as Robert Cohn-nor as eager. I was enjoying it. It was lousy to enjoy it, but I felt lousy. Cohn had a wonderful quality of bringing out the worst in anybody.” (Hemingway 104)

To think that we were friends Jake, I cannot believe you have said this. I’ve been through so much and I don’t think I’m going to take any more insults from people that I call my “friends.” The only thing they are good for is to cause pain and embarrassment in my life. The only reason Jake said this was because he was jealous, not thinking before he speaks. It’s not my fault I had an affair with Brett. Just because you had your little “accident” and could not have a relationship with her, it doesn’t mean I can’t. The reason I acted like this was because I haven’t seen her since our visit to San Sebastian. I was eager and nervous at the same time. I’m sure she’s in love with me and I know this won’t be the last time we’ll be seeing each other. I don’t care what anyone says, Brett and I will end up together once again. I’m tired of people telling me what I can and can’t do. I’m going to stop caring about what people think, especially from people that have no morals and love to get drunk all the time. I’m mature enough to not say anything back but, next time something like this happens I’m going to stand up for myself, it won’t be pretty.

Frances Clyne

 

"Why, you see, Robert's always wanted to have a mistress, and if he doesn't marry me, why, then he's had one" (Hemingway 58)

I don't understand why Cohn would rather have mistresses than get married to me. I would be an amazing wife and I'd leave him alone and get along with him, but no I have to be the one to sacrifice myself for him. Yeah well I am tired of waiting. I've waited two years and I am not getting any younger. Can you believe I found another grey hair? I have waited so long for Cohn to ask me to marry him. God I was so stupid! I should have left him the first chance I got. Back then I was young and beautiful and could have easily married anyone I wanted down in Cannes, they were all crazy about me. All Cohn does now is focus on his book and he never pays attention to our relationship. He says he is having trouble coming up with material, well obviously if anyone is as pathetic and childish as he is now how can anyone ever come up with quality book publishing material. I swear ever since that one trip to New York he came back to Paris thinking he was Mr. Casanova just because three girls were flirting with him. Oh please! What he needs to do is lower that ego and remind himself who's gotten him this far, me. Me, its all been me.

 

 Jake Barnes

"It's awfully easy to be hard-boiled about everything in the daytime, but at night it is another thing."

Love is a beautiful and terrible thing. Being in love is a wonderful state of mind when the feeling is mutual; when it is isn't, love can become draining and a detriment to one's judgement and general well-being. The worst part about it is that once you're invested in the fantasy, escape is futile. There is no running from it because it stalks within the shadows of the recesses of your mind until it rears its ugly head.

Brett.

The unforgettable love that never finds its hiding place. The unrequited love that sleeps around as it chooses. The unforgiving love that will never allow me to live down my shame. The relentless love that keeps me frozen in an unending cycle of heartbreak. The constant reminder of a romance not meant to be. 

But...

When I rise from this pit of despair, I will be done with you. You will not control me any longer. It will take some time but I will find happiness without you. That is, at least, until tomorrow night.

GN Jake Barnes

The Jake Barnes Struggle

"'Oh, Jake,' Brett said, 'we could have had such a damned good time together.' ... 'Yes,' I said. 'Isn't it pretty to think so?'" (Hemingway 251).

Really now, Brett? You tell me this after you consistently chased after a flock of men and spun chaos into my life? Listen, babe, I get how you liked pushing me away before running back to me whenever your other playthings were getting troublesome to deal with, but it was getting really dull after the tenth time. I promise that I'll be there for you if you need a shoulder to cry on, but I won't fall for that charm of yours anymore. I don't really think you've changed, Brett and I won't scold you for that; just know that I don't want you anymore.

Jake Barnes

#donewithyourshenanigans #idontneedyou

Jake Barnes

"I was blind, unforgivingly jealous of what had happened to him. The fact that I took it as a matter of course did not alter that any. I certainly did hate him."

I hate that man. How did I not know there was more to their relationship than what meets the eye. I didn’t know Cohn would be that desperate to go to Brett. There is really only one thing that makes us different and it’s my injury. He is as less of a man as I am because he is a coward. He couldn’t stomach the gore that occurred at the bullfight. Also, when he thought I was insulting him when I said Brett is committed to two loveless marriages and then I gave him a half-hearted apology, that coward was glad to sit down and retreat from the argument. Cohn is so pathetic, winning a bet with inside knowledge and excusing me from paying the bet, he is less of a man and does not deserve to be my enemy.

Lady Brett Ashley

“‘Don’t know why I get so nervy in church,’ Brett said. ‘Never does me any good … I’m damned bad for a religious atmosphere…’ (Hemingway 212).”

The day after Robert hurt Romero, I went to the church with Jake. I really don’t know why since I very well know that it is not a place for me. Of course I get nervy in church, and I sure know why. There are too many rules, too many moral guidelines by which I cannot force myself to abide. I don’t belong in such a place, not to mention the fact that I hardly believe in its ideals and in God. What has He ever done for me, anyway? Nothing, I’d say. Not a thing I ask for ever comes true. Like I told Jake that day: it never does me any good. Besides, the atmosphere gets me thinking about things I shouldn’t be thinking about. There are some things better left forgotten, and religious places only bring them to the surface.

Pedro Romero

  

 "Be a good chap, Jake. Don't tell her (Brett) anything more about him. Tell her how they beat their old mothers... Drunk all day and spend all their time beating their poor old mothers."

Ay Dios mio. He knows I am better than him that's why he doesn't want Jake to keep talking about me! Jake knows the truth; how honorable and good I am. Lets face it, I'm everything he's not. I think this "chap" is just jealous that I took his lady from him. It really wasn't hard. She just had to watch me in the ring and she fell in love. I really don't blame her. Who wouldn't leave their old, broke partner for a young, handsome matador like me? He just sounds muy bitter. He has some nerve making up stupid rumors when he's the one that is drunk all day. I hope he doesn't think his words affect Brett's feelings at all because we all know he is nada compared to me. 

Lady Brett Ashley

"Couldn't we live together, Brett? Couldn't we just live together?"

"I don't think so. I'd just tromper you with everybody. You couldn't stand it. "(Hemingway 62)

    What I said is true but why does it have to be? Why is it that I crave physical affection from men that don't love me? He offers me a normal life but something within tells me I will never be able to accept this offer. I will never truly be satisfied with what I have. I use people and discard them like nothing and here the one person I don't want to throw away, but I do because of my own selfish ways. I wasn't made for love. I don't deserve to be loved by Jake, who has stuck by me unconditionally. It's to late for me to change and I suppose I should get used to the idea of an unhappy, unfulfilled life. It's an endless game that I play, I always win but there's no prize in sight.

Robert Cohn

                                                               

                                                                     

                                                                    Robert Cohn

"Tell me, Robert. Why do you follow Brett around like a poor bloody steer? Don't you know when you're not wanted? I know when I'm not wanted. Why don't you know when you're not wanted? You came down in San Sebastian when you weren't wanted, and followed Brett around like a bloody steer. Do you think that's right?" (Hemingway 146).

Of course I know when I'm not wanted. That's why I went to San Sebastian with Brett. I've been hearing the same "Unwanted this" "Jewish that" drivel for several days now, and I know enough about you to recognize that seeing me and her in the same room as you stings. Look at you, you drown your sorrows every waking hour, trying to forget the fact that your lady had her way with me, and countless others. You can say all you want about me, but at least I'm not a bankrupt like you, and I don't think you need to read enough Mencken to know that there's a reason for that. Besides, you're just as much a steer as me, gored like the rest.

 Mike Campbell 

“Tell me Robert. Why do you follow Brett around like a poor bloody steer? Don’t you know you’re not wanted? I know when I’m not wanted. Why don’t you know when you’re not wanted? You came down to San Sebastian where you weren’t wanted, and followed Brett around like a bloody steer” (Hemingway 146).

 I guess I was a little harsh on Robert when I’m drunk but I said everything I truly meant. He has to know where he stands when it comes to Brett and me. I will not lose the only person that accepts my failures to someone who is weak and unlike us. Robert is just like a steer. He doesn’t belong in this group of “bulls” nor is he one of us. He is an outsider and will always be one. He can never seem to understand that he’s not wanted. At all means, I know I’m not perfect and I don’t have much going for me, which makes it ironic that I’m verbally attacking him, but he gets what he deserves. He doesn’t understand how frustrating it is to know that he likes Brett. I see how he looked at her at San Sebastian and even now and I know he’s writing letters to her. I don’t read them but Brett shows them to me as if she’s giving me a warning. Maybe this whole incident is foreshadowing the future of Brett and me or maybe Robert gets what I’m saying and finds new friends and a new love interest. I guess only time will tell.  

Lady Brett Ashley

    Lady Brett Ashley 

 "Oh, Jake," Brett said, "we could have had such a d*mned good time together."

Ahead was a mounted policeman in khaki directing traffic. He raised his baton. The car slowed suddenly pressing Brett against me. 

"Yes," I said. "Isn't it pretty to think so?"    (Hemingway 251)

  

     
     I can't believe that Jake didn't even try to fight for our relationship. Instead I have Cohn and Mike all on me when Jake is the one I truly love. I know that me and Jake could never work out because of my needs, but gosh I thought I was more than enough to satisfy his. I just cannot help what I feel for him. Jake just understands me unlike anyone else. Sure I have Mike and I can always count on him, but he doesn't love me like Jake does. No one else understands me like Jake does. Romero wanted me to grow out my hair and change who I am, when he has no idea that the last thing I want to be is a stereotypical housewife. I manipulated all these men around me that only love me for my looks when the man I truly need is Jake. Instead of me always having to take care of him we could have taken care of each other. I guess old habits die hard so I'm off to go win Mike back even though in my heart I know that Jake is the ultimate prize. 

Lady Brett Ashley

“The street was lined on both sides with people keeping their place at the curb for the return of the procession. Some dancers formed a circle around Brett and started to dance. They wore big wreaths of white garlics around their necks. They took Bill and me by the ares and put us in the circle. Bill started to dance , too. They were all chanting. Brett wanted to dance but they did not want her to. They wanted her as an image to dance around." (Hemingway 159)

What can I say, I am beautiful and seem to attract attention no matter where I go. I’ve been told numerous amounts of time that I am a sight to see. Well chap, be careful I am not one to fall in love. That night was truly one of my favorites. The streets were alive with people and music. I love to dance, you could feel the beats vibrations in your bones. I just love that feeling. The people were dressed up in costume and they looked as though they genuinely were enjoying themselves.  I was glad to see Bill dancing as well. The dancers encircled me while dancing and chanting. I felt as though being worshiped. I felt like the god of beauty, no, the very definition of beauty. I was so happy that I could barely sit still and just allow them to chant. I wanted to dance but they would stop me whenever i tried. I wished that moment could freeze forever. I saw a smile creep onto Jake's face. He doesn't smile enough. He just very snarky. But ever since Bill's been with us, Jake has been in a lighter mood. Anyway that moment was just perfect. I love Pamplona.

Jake Barnes

Jake Barnes

‘So there you were. I was sorry for him, but it was not a thing you could do anything about, because right away you ran up against the two stubbornnesses: South America could fix it and he did not like Paris. He got the first idea out of a book and I suppose the second came out of a book, too. (Hemingway 20)

Robert Cohn is such is such a fool, so dumbfounded by everything.  He’s like a child on Christmas, every present seems to be better than the last. He could literally be given rocks and leaves and yet still he’d be amazed. 

Lady Brett Ashley LOVES Jake Barnes

Lady Brett Ashley

"Oh, Jake," Brett said, "we could have had such a damned good time together." 

"Yes," I said, "Isn't pretty to think so?"

Okay, I know you guys probably heard I had a breakdown about Romero but, I just caught a little breeze in my eyes. Anyways I am not with Romero anymore, sadly. He was a great guy, perfect even. Something told me I had to leave him. Now I am not with anyone, I still have to see if my relationship with Jake is still there. You know, you can never put your eggs in one basket. I always loved Jake, it just took me so long to see that I could be with him. I do not know why but, something told me that we may able to have a relationship. Yeah, I could REALLY see it now. All I know is that Jake is always going to be there for me and that I love him. He seems to think that it's a great idea too. Brett <3 Jake.

Bill Gorton

"Bill was very happy. He made a lot of money with his last book and he was going to make a lot more. We had a good time while he was in Paris, and then he went off to Vienna." (Hemingway 76)

You're right Jake life has been great so far. Life in America was great and like you said my book was a huge success. I had a great time catching up with you in Paris. I wish you could have come with me to Budapest and Vienna. I had a wonderful time in both those places, but I'm sure it would have been more fun to have my old friend around. Even though I was too drunk to remember anything in Vienna. On the other hand, I can't wait for our trip to Spain so we can participate in the big fiesta!

Brendan Stanzione
Per.3-4A
12/2/15
 

Jake Barnes

“We could have had such a damned good time together.”(Hemingway 251)

               

                Wow, Brett finally realized how good we would have been together. If it weren’t for me being impotent we maybe could have been a couple. She would have just cheated on me anyway even if we were together. After all this time, she finally realized what she was missing. She was so caught up in other guys; I thought she’d never see. I would never actually say all this to her because she may of gotten angry at me. So I just said “Isn’t it pretty to think so?” (Hemingway 251)